One of the lessons I'm here to learn (as a Six of Diamonds) is how to say 'no'.
Correction, it's not so much that I don't know how to say the word, it's more like I hesitate to say it. . . on a pretty regular basis.
Part of that might be a fear of missing out. #fomo Part might be a fear of not being liked. Part might be that I've always been oriented toward inclusion & compromise. Whatever the reason, I struggle to recall points in my life when a decision was clearly a 'fuck no' for me.
Don't misunderstand, I've had plenty of times where I've stood up for myself or changed my mind about something or decided something needed to end. But I also know that those moments were arrived at with significant deliberation. . . painstaking consideration. . . & with an ongoing undercurrent of what if.
Chalk it up to my cards. . . my astrology. . . my numerology. . . hell, my conditioning. But a 'fuck yes' has always come easier to me than a 'fuck no'. And I'm a little embarrassed to admit that 'meh' has come the easiest of them all.
Seriously, though, who wants to live a life of 'meh'?!?
Do I? FUCK NO!
And there you have it, gurus! Y'all got to bear witness to my decision to shift out of 'meh' & into 'fuck no'.
See, the first step to understanding how & why we operate as we do is always to bring that something into your awareness. For me, that happened when I sat down to write this post. (Shit! I don't have a 'fuck no' story.)
The next step is to observe & analyze to find the why. #introspection (Ok, I can feel that I sit in the 'meh' most often. . . & that feels kinda gross.)
And finally, we get to decide if we want to make a #change. (Do I like sitting in the 'meh'? Fuck no! So I'm not going to do it anymore.)
So, how do YOU make decisions? And where are you sitting in the 'meh'??
PS: Check out podcast 🎧 episode #16 to learn more about decision-making.
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